And many of them seemed to be more gay than bisexual, and looking for romance, hugging, and kissing in addition to anal sex.
I started looking at the Craigslist postings every time I had the opportunity and realized that it was mostly younger men who were active on the site and looking for hookups with other young men. I learned in the chat rooms on some of the cuckold sites that men sometimes use websites such as Craigslist to contact other men for sex. I also don’t have any close friends or neighbors who had ever exhibited any interest in having sex with other men.Īfter thinking more about it, I realized that if I was willing to have sex with a stranger, I could use my frequent travel as an opportunity to find men when I'm out of town. I work in sales for a major payment processing company in Omaha and travel a lot, so I don’t have many close acquaintances from work to consider. You would think that would be easy, but I found out later that it is harder than you think if you want a controlled and safe situation. My name is Ed, and I was in a quandary as to how I was going to find a man who would let me suck his cock. I call that the post-orgasm blues, and I think it happens to some men due to changing hormone levels after orgasm. I knew that I didn’t want the other men to reciprocate because I ejaculate way too quickly when I’m aroused, and then lose interest. I know that sounds counterintuitive, but I was seeking the emotional pleasure of sucking other men. To me, it was just about the sexual relief I thought I could get by providing oral service to other men. I knew that I didn’t have any attraction to men, per se, and didn’t want to be romantically involved with them, and didn’t even care how they looked. Maybe that was because of my small dick, but I was deriving great sensual pleasure in reading those stories, and imagining myself as a submissive, cock sucking husband, who gets off on sucking those larger cocks that are described so well that I could almost taste them.Īll of the submissive feelings I was having made me want to find a man to suck, but I didn’t know where to begin. I’m a well-educated and perceptive guy, and I began to realize that my identification with the cuckold characters in those stories was exposing some bisexual or even homosexual propensities in my character, that I never knew about previously. I still loved Kendra, and I was just looking for sexual relief in the safest way possible. It was tempting to look for other women who might be receptive, but I thought that entering a relationship with a middle-aged woman could be a risky endeavor since I didn’t want my marriage to end badly. And the strange thing is that in those fantasies, I started to envision myself sucking the cum of other men from my wife’s pussy and even sucking her lovers’ cocks. I have a small, four-inch dick, and became immersed in the stories, almost as if it was my wife fucking other men. That’s when I started enjoying the stories on those sites, because it was easy for me to identify with the cuckold characters. In my case, I started going to porn sites and began viewing photos and short video clips of heterosexual sex, before discovering the cuckold genre. I found myself in a similar situation at the time I turned forty-eight years old when my wife, Kendra, was forty-seven. Some men just accept those changes, while others either seek out other women or men for relief and/or turn to porn for at least some sexual enjoyment. Sometimes this is caused by hormonal changes resulting from menopause, or it could be that they have simply tired of the ritual and no longer enjoy it. There is a sad fact of life that some men discover as they age into their late forties and fifties some of the wives, who had been good and accommodating lovers from before marriage and until their late forties, lose interest in having sex.